seriously hating

i wonder why i decided to take the friggen correspondence class. i knew i wouldn't really have time and knew that i would be distracted, but decided to take it anyway. that was a huge mistake. at this point, i'll have to take it next summer just to improve my mark... which wouldn't be a bad thing because i'm hoping to be in kingston and it would be my second time around.

i've never gotten a mark that low in my whole life. and the thing i don't understand is that it's not like i didn't try. i actually did this one a week before it was due and edited it like three times. i never have that many drafts of anything. i really should take this as a learning experience and take the profs corrections and apply them, but it was basically because my thesis was too general. how was i supposed to know how detailed she wanted it? it's so hard when the prof isn't IN class. i mean, i have no idea what she's like. and i definitely read people.

oh well. my second paper's already in, so i'll hope for the best, but i really need to get my act together for the third paper. now that i have work, everything seems to be interfering with school. i really wanna go white water rafting... but is a class that i'm not doing well in really worth the sacrifice of a chance in a lifetime?

we'll see...