confessional song

i've been listening to a lot of music lately. not just listening, but really listening to lyrics. charlotte church's "confessional song" really hit me because she's so true to herself. the song describes different confessions that charlotte has about herself. she talks about her smoking, her religion, her dog and other things that prove that she's really thought about herself. and it really got me thinking about different things i would confess to myself, about myself.

trying to plan my birthday has been hell. i don't think i'm going to end up doing anything, just because no one's ever really sure what's happening until the day-of. and that really doesn't work for me. it makes me think about what is true in my life. there were two people that said that they'd be in, no matter what, and even when things conflicted, figured out a way to play a part in my day. everyone else was so conditional. obviously, some people had valid excuses and i respect them for that, but i'm kind of peeved with everyone else. it makes me think about who my true friends are. and the answer is the same as it's always been... which is reassuring. i have close friends that i know will always be there for me.

i went out with a couple of my friends on friday night and has a blast. i forgot how much that lot made me laugh. i'm so comfortable with them and don't have to pretend to be someone i'm not. i can just be. and i absolutely loved it. i met my best friend's boyfriend too and he's really a great guy, which is assuring, because i'm happy she's found someone decent (finally).

this entry is kind of long, so i'll save more pondering for later. more confessions to come.